they might now understand, but have you sat down and talked to anyone about how you feel? really given then some insight? <br />
i find the best way to beat the blues is to spend as much time as you can with the people you love, like your family and friends, go out and have fun, being alone is one of the worst things you can do
Have you tried using jazzhands?
You can't "kill" the blues dummy. Say what is really going on and perhaps someone can help. If your family did understand you you'd be in big trouble as you'd be the only one on the planet. with that knowledge held by your family.