I only write this as someone who wishes to help...but this is beyond what a bunch of strangers on a web site can help you with. This is consuming your life..you need an expert to help you. We are all happy to keep talking and support you in any way we can...but this is. Beyond us.<br />
Please get the help you deserve so you can live free...not as aprisoner to fear. :)<br />
You can do it!
Get help pronto.
Get the right meds , n stop using it as an excuse for skipping school
take some medicine and try to focus on your school
see a doctor and seek treatment - medication perhaps.
Get help from someone like a counsellor or a doctor.
Your mother should take you for some counseling. Also, face your fears head on....go to school. If you don't face your fear, it will consume and get the best of you.
I was the exact same when I was at school, I feel your pain.