::hugs tightly:: I'm so sorry.
Sounds like a combo of missing your friend and quilt about not being able to help her. You should consider talking to a professional. There is nothing to be ashamed of, and it would help to sort through the feelings.
im really sorry about your friend. one thing that you must remember is that this is not your fault. you are graced simply because you had the carre in your heart to even get her help and for that, you should feel as though you did something good for her because you did. keep your head up and always remember her, but know that she wouldn't want you to live your life unhappy *hugs*
Rough stuff to be sure. <br />
You did everything you could but there really isn't any way to control the actions of someone besides yourself. Difficult to accept but true.<br />
These are good folks and may have a support group near you:<br />
Sorry to hear that :( ..But nobody "knows"...I had three friends(separately not as a group thing) commit suicide...just out of the blue...The ones that want to "end it" just end it...the ones who "attempt suicide" are the ones looking for attention/help.
Omg ... that so sad ... :: hugs from the heart::
I had a friend who shot himself thirty years ago. If you want to understand, it helps to be suicidal yourself at least once, but, having been on the edge at one time, I seriously would not recommend it. You never quite get over a friend doing that, but you do live with it better and better as time goes by. Good luck. It can be done.
There is no knowing that mind. It's just a raw deal all around - never any different.<br />
Hang on to the best of her - not this part. Peace.