There is the possibility that what you have is genuine love and not lust. You would have to search yourself to figure this out.
It is what makes relationships last. Passion (lust) always fades if there is not genuine love to follow then relationships fall apart. I guess what I should have said was is it love or fondness.
I would suggest meditation. This will calm your mind and the thoughts will flow more easily. Then when they do come you can ponder them.
Tests will come soon. You will know it no matter what.
They you go. A test would be when you two are not together. Not in touch. This will bring out the next and actual level of your relationship.
Ok take it as a challenge then. Talk to him about it. No contact between you two in these 9 days and report back on the tenth :) You will like it !
Some men tend to feel stifled under those circumstances.
Does he know this is how you feel? If that is ok with him and you, then that is all that should matter.
How could he take it the wrong way. It is the truth, and you are pretty clear about how you feel. Would it bother you if you found out that he felt that way about you? I'm not saying either way...just asking you.
You two should talk more. You shouldn't be thinking that this is how he feels. Maybe really talking about things (how inconvenient and heartbreaking it can end up being) will give you both a new perspective on your relationship and possibly bring you closer together. Infatuation is one thing, but I need passion in a relationship, and 20 years from now, I'm still going to want passion.
excitement, expansion, a story ready to be told.