There is the possibility that what you have is genuine love and not lust. You would have to search yourself to figure this out.
It is what makes relationships last. Passion (lust) always fades if there is not genuine love to follow then relationships fall apart. I guess what I should have said was is it love or fondness.
I would suggest meditation. This will calm your mind and the thoughts will flow more easily. Then when they do come you can ponder them.
Tests will come soon. You will know it no matter what.
They you go. A test would be when you two are not together. Not in touch. This will bring out the next and actual level of your relationship.
Ok take it as a challenge then. Talk to him about it. No contact between you two in these 9 days and report back on the tenth :) You will like it !
Some men tend to feel stifled under those circumstances.