I need an advice.
I have strong feelings for a guy that I've known for like four years. We've been friends ever since we met and I always had something for him and i thought he might like me too by the things he do. Like for example he called me hos closed friend, everytime we see each other we hug, when we dance at parties he is always spinning me. He is now gone, he volunteers at a place in NY. Last time saw him was at a party I didn't hug him at first I shook his hand and told him how his tie matched the color of my dress and he says "that's because what you and I have is special" I disnt know to react to that so I hugged him real tight and he kissed my cheek. Later that night when I dance with him I couldn't look him in the eye so he told me to look at him I and I couldn't because I was cracking up. I haven't seen him since then. He has visited a few times after that I just didn't get to see him. And its driving me mad because I don't know what to do. I don't understand why he won't let me go or If I should fight for what we have. Please help.