yeah it seems life certainly throws some curves... but who knows what's around the corner - maybe you should try on Canada for something different :)
U have to stop looking back gotta go forward and find new ways or people to make u happy and i know trust me it is easier said then done but looking back at what lost just make u sadder
As soon as you stop worrying about how you're going to find it, and just start finding the beauty in the little things, it will come.
You don't have to have any expectations or a plan. Just get out there and see what you will find. You might be surprised. :)