I remember how happy i use to be how am i going to get there again
i remember finishing college working hard believing i could be somebody i got a fantastic job and jumped on the opportunity to move to fl to be near the beach like i saw on TV. i would think of myself at the beach everyday while i took a shower for work. i got there i was happy i met a wonderful man he owned his own business and showed and gave me a so much. he was everything i wanted. but he was not happy he was in love with someone else and would put me down for the person i am or at least i felt that way. eventually he dumped me right after i lost my job and completed my MBA. and I am back to my south west desert and singe and been very depressed. i worked at finding a job here but i was not happy i pretty much allowed them to fire me. i was not happy there anyway to many butch guys out in the middle of nowhere. but for some reason i feel like i have a lighter heart now and i need to smile and get out of the house live my life and i know the job and bf will come.