I think about my ex alot, and even though he broke my heart, I still miss him,a whole year later. Is this normal?
My ex boyfriend is constantly on my mind. No matter how much I try to 'hate' him and keep pent up anger inside toward him, every so often...the good times we did have together start making me smile.
But then I start getting that same gut wrenching feeling that I received the moment he broke up with me over the phone, and I start to think bad things about him again. Then I start thinking about all the females he tried to make me jealous with LESS than 2 weeks after our breakup. Which also makes me livid.
Apart of me probably just wishes he'd own up to what he did to me, another part of me just wishes that we were still together. But realistically I feel that the break up happened for a reason, maybe to help me realize I need to not ever love someone more than I love myself.
But I just don't know if I'll ever get over him. I probably sound like a kid, but I'm 26. He just had me so in love with him, he was literally my first true love. So I hate to think that I'll never heal