I think I fell in love with my best friend. I am a girl and he is gay. How do I get over this?
He has never done anything with a guy, but we together have had our moments. He has said he loves me but he isn't "in love" with me. I've reciprocated, but I think I have other feelings. He has been out-of-the-closet for a few years now (we're both in college and are seniors), and we have been tied at the hip our entire college career. He just went on a date with a guy for the first time the other day, and it is so hard. I know the guy too, the three of us were in music, but the guy he is dating is almost 9 years older than him. My best friend is very mature, so it will probably turn out to be a great relationship. We haven't talked about it in person, only over the phone. I can't even look at him. I don't want him to see me cry, but it hurts so much hearing him say how cute he is and what a nice person he is. They sound like they're great for each other and I just want to be happy for him. I don't think I can stay behind this shield any longer. Help me. Please?