I think I need to be hospitalized for my depression,but am scared I may lose my job and those close to me,what do I do?
For the past few days my mood has become extremely deteriorated, Me and my boyfriend had a bad fight due to my insecurity issues,but I have also had added stress due to work. I have a history of depression and self mutilation. Even though he says things are going to be fine I still keep freaking out,I know he is becoming annoyed by my texts and messages,or my random snapping at him. (he has decided to take a few day break from things). I am afraid I need to be hospitalized again,but I am afraid he may think I am crazy (although I feel that way lately and am coming off as so to everyone). I feel like a psycho girl friend right now due to my fears,but I am also scared I may lose my job because I am a temp if I am hospitalized,I believe I need it right now really,I have already hurt myself,but I am afraid my boyfriend will think it is all because of the fight,when really it was just the last push of stress I needed,what do I do? Do I risk losing my new job/bf or risk becoming too low..