No you've ruined yourself with your experimentation. You'll probably soon be incontinent
and have to wear diapers
The bad news is, no, it is not going to go back. And at your age, by the time you are about 40, sh*t is going to be falling out of it without your control.
The good news is....Well come to think of it, there really isn't any good news.
It's called surgery
You breakded it. Sawwy.