Sounds like you were a work of art.
You are hurt and sad. Taking it out on others is not the answer to your problems, it will only make them worse. When you are mean to others you dislike yourself more and more. It will be a bigger deeper dark hole than you are in right now.
Well thankfully that's a hell of a disgusting and gross than smearing your poo all over the walls dude.
Thank God. :-)