I am a mom of a teen daughter who has been cutting for years. It took me a long time to understand why. It's a release and an addictive habit. A poor coping skill. In the moment it will give you some relief from whatever negative feelings you are having. Long term if you don't get regular counseling to address the underlying reasons for your cutting, it will progress and you could die cutting too deep. So please find a counselor that you can talk it out with. If the first counselor doesn't feel right, say so and find another until you find someone that you feel a connection with.
dump all of your tech and join the site called life!!!!
so here's the deal, you said you have panic attacks and you ignore people, I can't address the cutting because I don't understand what you get from it or why you do it. as for the other 2 it's probably because you never really learned to interact with people, it's too damned easy to text someone or e-mail them. you need social interaction, the more of it you get the more comfortable you become with it. so dump the tech and get out and get a life. it's the only way you can get comfortable with dealing with people.
Why are you hurting yourself? What is causing the panic attacks?
Have people hurt you in the past?
I'm sorry to hear that. Is that when the cutting started or were you doing it before?
So it sounds like you started cutting because someone else hurt you emotionally. You cut yourself and it makes the pain go away for a while. But cutting isn't really dealing with the pain. It just masks it for a while. Right now, you're worried that you'll be hurt again, which is also why you're anxious around people.
I would suggest talking to a counselor or therapist. If your parents won't take you, keep asking until they do. Or, find another adult family member to talk to about it. Also, try writing or painting or some other creative outlet to express your pain instead of cutting yourself. You need to let go of the pain so that it doesn't destroy you. Do you think you can try those things:
The "how" right now is not as important the start of how. You should seek counselling and start talking these issues out. These feelings you're having are not rare. Do your parents have any clue as to what you're going through?
That means that they don't have a clue what you're going through. And that sucks, but don't get hung up about it. They are from a different time and different culture. You need a foot in the door to someone that can talk to you, that has some experience in these matters. You should take the initiative and look through the phone book and make a few calls inquiring about experience. Then ask your parents to trust you, that you need to give counselling a try and suggest the one you've chosen. Being assertive in this is no small thing for a girl your age. But you need to do your best at asserting yourself with your parents with this matter.
Good. Don't give up!
There's no one cure all for this I suggest seeing a therapist
Well you can talk to me about what's bugging you I've talked to others with this problem
Are you taking medication?
There could be a lot of reasons why you do it. In order to understand, you should talk to someone you trust about the things you think might be upsetting or causing stress to you. Some people cut as a way of coping and so working through it and being able to find a healthy way to express yourself can probably help a great deal. Talking to a therapist can sometimes help because they have the ability to help you channel your emotions.