Try Emotional Freedom Technique. Find a practitioner in your area and look up videos on Youtube to understand what it is. I hope this helps
My own feeling on this is that it took almost 63 years of "my life" to feel this way, so how could it possibly be fixed w/the wave of someone's magic wand?
Have you every been hospitalized for this? Perhaps you should seek this as a means of protecting yourself UNTIL you find the proper help. Finding the right physician is key. Hang in there, I have been there and I know how you feel.
Some are biologically depressed and not situationally depressed, the difference is biological can happen for no good reason, as it has with me. Situational is when you suffer a loss, such as a child or a home etc. Situational passes with most people. Biological is the chemistry in your brain. Taking a shower or getting out of bed are big hurdles for a Clinically or Biological person; never mind going back to college. Doing anything is like climbing a mountain. I suffered for years with Clinical Depression and tried to commit suicide twice, but also thought of doing it often. I have tried every anti-depressant there is, and went to DBT classes, therapy and was so desperate, I had ECT, Which didn't work for me and it was frightening and I have a huge memory loss. It works for many, but not me and I am through with that awful experience. What has helped me finally get my life back was to add Ritalin to the Prozac and Abilify I am currently taking. I have my life back!!! I've gone back to work, (Not as a Dietician, because ECT has ruined a huge part of my memory.) , I shower and eat everyday, I make my bed and do all the things I used to do!!!!! I am back!!!! My therapist told me Ritalin was used in some very depressed patients, but because it's not backed by the FDA for depression, you don't hear much about it. I'm a happy, living, working example it works! Google Ritalin for depression and take a copy to you're therapist. The BEST of luck. I'm very aware of the living hell you're going through.
I envy you. I am not able to take anti-depressants, as I'm one of the freaks that it has the opposite effect on. Don't know how much longer I can do this. So tired of being thrown away when I am no longer any use to people--even my own children. Life sucks, and then you have to keep living...or do you?
Try just the Ritalin, it's not classified as an antidepressant. It's the only thing that really helped me after years of debilitating depression...Good Luck..try googling it
I have had depression since I was eleven. It has ruined my life but some how I have survived and I am glad I did.
Have you ever tried electro shock therapy. That really could help you and when it is done they say it is the gold standard for treatment. I wouldn't let this option slip by if you can not get any relief with the meds.
I know the road is a long one but I was so bad at one time I thought I was going to die without ever getting a chance at life. Give the shock treatment a try you have nothing to lose.
Hope things change soon. Have you tried praying? - it might work.
I've prayed all of my life, and I'm now fairly certain God is busy elsewhere...
Have you every tried an alternative approach? If you've had all conventional medical testing done to rule out underlying physical causes, maybe you should consult with a good homeopath. I worked in a holistic dental office for years, and had some patients who had exhausted everything that conventional medicine could offer, and finally found help through homeopathy. It's not always the answer, but it might be worth a shot.
Every person is different, you are no exception. Seeking help can take years because a therapist has to understand what you're going through before they can give you any advice. It's a lot of trial and error. They prescribe pills that help some people, but that's really more of a bandaid solution.
Have you asked yourself why you are depressed? Why you want to die? And if so, have you figured out the real answer to those questions?
Sounds more like anxiety than depression to me. Too much anxiety can lead to depression I suppose though. Have you ever heard of Alan Watts? You should check this out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ERbvKrH-GC4
I wouldn't call it what the title says, it's not about that. Just a perspective I think you could benefit from. Let me know what you think.