I've never cheated on anyone, but when I'm available, I can't resist the lure of a friendly vagina.
1) yes. most had to do with violating taboos or conventions. shame as a spice.
2) too much to tell. I can't explain a lot of it succinctly, only convey by example.
I'm into other women!
Yes, I do see a pattern but that doesn't stop me. Lesson learned this pattern will become my life if I don't try to change it.
I've learned things, like:
I'm a horrible person and yet I'm actually pretty kind... I'm evil, no doubt about that though. I'm weak, I'm a wuss, I hate absolutely everything. I hate everyone, and if I say I don't - you can't believe me because it's likely I just feel bad for offending you. I'm selfish. I'm a prude. I'm just a dreadful person, end of story.
My pattern is love-hate-love-hate.
My problem is I don't succumb to temptations. I've lived my life being the good perfect boy and it's brought me nothing but loneliness, regret, and depression.
absolutely, but to answer question 2 would take too long and risk what little humility i've learned
Yes I like things that make me feel good but theyre all legal