I ask that same question back in mid September. I wanted to write a book but had no clue how to do it. So I just started writing what came to mind. Now I am up to page 250. And I thought I did not have much to say when I first started the book. The journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step.
Baby steps. Break it down into small bite size chunks. Dont expect it to go in order it should in your mind for example ABCDE sometimes happens ABEDC
Set your expectations low until the ball is rolling. You can raise it back up later. You will have to practice on the focusing if this is something you really want. I have never seen a false start, are you talking about a relationship?
Build yourself up before you choose a mate. You wont be aware of what you are capeable of until then; and you will probably find they come to you at that point. With a little effort of course. You are not on an easy path but if you tough it out now you wont regret it. Give it about 7 years. When your life is set according to your belief and value system it will actually start rejuvenating you and it wont feel so heavy anymore. I think I might be rambling, so I hope this helps.
Stop talking about it!<br />
Just do it.
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