go to your doctor and get gender therapy first. you have to actually be a female on the inside not just want to be one for sexual reasons. a lot of mtfs really dun know this for many years before they work it all out and can swing from one gender to another in their minds before they have it all worked out and some are lucky enough to know they are female on the inside very early on. you still need therapy though to find out which one you are first... then get your hormones and good luck. <br />
what your doctor could help you with right now though would be hormone blockers to halt the continuing process of testosterone effects until you can go on estrogen if this is the right path for you. ask him/her if you can have these hormone blockers as they will help in the short term. good luck.
You should seek the advice and guidance of a DR .. not EP or google
estrogen good luck
You should really talk to a doctor about this. I do believe that before you even start hormones, you undergo therapy first.
I don't think you can get them without a presc<x>ription.
Go to the doctor.