If possible, you should be put in inpatient. Not only is it a safe place where you likely won't be able to hurt yourself, but it's like a little escape from the world. It gives you time to get it together again, and there are people there that will help you out with it.
Don't let a boy control your emotions like that. Take time to yourself and dump him. There's someone for you out there, remember that. They will accept you for who you are-every flaw and insecurity you have. They'll embrace it and love it more than anything.
Your life does Not revolve around ANY boyfriend!
He obviously is immature and not someone who is emotionally healthy for you. Take a break, get to know yourself, and perhaps talk to a professional.
If the relationship feels that bad to you, get out of the relationship.
I don't think you should be insecure, from what I can see from your picture you look unbelievably beautiful. With the whole boyfriend situation I completely understand, the last guy I've been with in the past made me feel like that too:( but you know why they do this? its because they don't want to lose you. Now don't think however he's treating you is right, because its completely wrong!!!! you deserve better than that. I'm sure everyone tells you that though and you think they are all lying to you, but trust me it's the truth. I'm with a guy now that treats me wonderfully and i'm so happy that i left the other jerk, or else i still would be depressed and continually hurting myself. Trust me your not going crazy or anything, your being a girl!!!! girls unfortunately get very to emotional. Just because there's one person in your life that doesn't treat you right, doesn't mean that their aren't other people out there that don't care for you. Good luck my friend:)
Gilltania....you need to be hospitalized. Probably just for a few days, but you needto be somewhere safe until this feeling passes. And it will. Go to an ER and tell them you are thinking of suicide. I came very very close to it as well. Knowing that my ex was wrong, or that I should be talking to a preacher only didnt help. I have family members who are pastors and have no idea how to deal with an issue such as this. There is hope..you CAN feel better.
call a help line, now, they can help you sort out this,No matter what it is there is help out there for you . you asked here ,just make the call and say help me!
I didn't even have to read your full note, dump this a$$ hole
You're contemplating killing yourself over a guy who obviously doesn't care ? You're giving him way too much power, my dear.......Dump him, get on with your studies and try to move forward with your life .
My suggestion......call the suicide prevention hotline...They are the ones you should be talking to and seeking help from....
I wish you the best.........Hugs
1. Life hurts and is ephemeral. There is the value of it.
2. If You love him enough, suffer for him. If not, find someone who will love You (If it is Your actual photo, that should not be hard!) But make a conscious decision!
3. I been tere. There is way aout.
Remember that you will have many opportunities in life to bring smiles and light to people who will truly be most grateful.
Do not be afraid. You are not alone. Be receptive to help, and you will receive it. Call a suicide help hotline and find a safe place to go to take a break from the stress.
the fact you are even addressing this on here shows the unparalleled strength you truly have the fact you are asking for help the fact that you want to live means that you can make it through this because you choose life always think about something winston churchill said ("if you're going through hell, keep going")
Suicide is a very selfish act ,leaving behind the pain of loves ones unanswered questions and no peace of mind through the remainder of their lives. Not to mention its no less than murder ..listen you're only young you're not the first and you won't be the last to be in a turbulent or possibly toxic relationship. If your not secure at this time of your life then ditch the boyfriend and focus on yourself ..if you don't do it now you'll find yourself entering the same kind of relationship ba
Who is more important you or him?
Turn to God and ask him for help. God loves you and doesn't want you to hurt yourself. Just pray that God will help you through your problems. If you can find a pastor to talk to. It can't hurt to ask God for answers.
He's manipulating you, and he's playing mind games in order to suit his own needs. You might not even OD on Anti-Depressants, you can fail at that and end up with permanent brain damage instead. Think about what's worse, working through your pain or tossing on more. Cut it off with him, the relationship isn't right for you. You have more important things to worry about in your life than guys. They come and go, and there will always be another. It's not worth it!!! You should ask your parents about getting a therapist or talk to a counselor, at this point it seems like you need one. But either way, your life is too damn important to let it be ruined by some ******* who doesn't even respect you.
You can't be selfish. No one has a perfect life. Well most don't. Don't take the easy way. It's not rewarding. If you make it through all this and one day your life will be complete and you will look back and see how awesome you are for overcoming all that crap. I'm sure it's hard to look up especially when your at rock bottom. But there is a future for everyone. You just have to keep on keeping on. You seem like a nice person. Don't let this a-hole make you feel more low than you already feel. You can't be with someone that doesn't want to be there for you no matter whats going on. You need someone to lift your spirits. But it's probably best you be single and concentrate on your schooling. I promise you, give yourself a chance and life will be better in the long run. You are great and nothing can stop that :).
I can feel your pain. I am a cutter too. When stress gets too much, well, bad things happen. I understand hating your life too. It is very hard. Please don't take the pills though. We often do rash things when we are in the mood you are in now. But often you will feel differently later, then you will come back to this way of thinking and so on and so on. I can't take it anymore too, I don't want my pain either, but you have to just deal with it for a while. It is very hard, and it sucks real bad. I understand not knowing what you are capable of too. I am having to move back with my family in another state because I don't know what I will do either. But you must realize that it is this mood that is causing to think like this. You must realize that when your mood changes you will feel differently. You should ditch the pills and find a distraction. Answering questions on this site is my distraction. Without it, I do a lot of cutting. Please be okay. If you ever need to talk, I am on often. I hope things go well with you. Peace.
Instead of acting erratic when you want to talk about your relationship, try to bring it up in a calm and nonthreatening manner. It's really hard to talk to someone who's yelling, screaming, and balling their eyes out. You can say how you feel without all that.
People react to situations in their own way. If crying is what they feel they need to do, so be it. Those who care for the one crying should be supportive, and not run away from the situation.
But if histrionics are your primary method for trying to resolve things, I think that there is something wrong there. You should be able to discuss problems without having to resort to that everytime.
Communication is key in ANY relationship. But most importantly, it sounds like you need to take some time for yourself.
Ok, well sorry for assuming that you were acting erratic. You kind of made it sound that way. I don't know your situation, but maybe you should talk to your mutual friends and see what they think.
Sometimes 'friends' can be wrong...