Sounds like you were. Why did you not go see your doctor at that time? He/she would've confirmed it easily with a simple examination and test of bodily fluids.
Regardless, you need to talk to someone. Get a recommendation for a counselor and get some help. You don't need to face this alone.
Please get help. Please talk to someone.
I would say that you were.
Denial is a very common side effect from such a trauma.
A lot of good advise from your friends here at EP...take the advice, see a professional...
It certainly seems like you were drugged and assaulted.... Your mind has a strong defense mechanism and is likely trying to block out events of what happened... You need to seek some help and guidance from a professional... You need to start with your family doctor, on a number of counts...
They will be able to assess you for any injury, potential STD's and steer you towards counseling...
So sorry you had to experience that.... Please seek proper guidance and help and remember you were not to blame in any of this... You were assaulted and deceived, however you're strong and can recover from this in due course..
Sometimes we start to question if something really happened, because it happened a long time ago. But really it's because we find it hard to accept. From what you have shared with us, it seems as if you were raped. I think you already know that, there are more than one sign saying you were. I really think you should talk with someone.
I know what it feels like. I haven't been involved with the same thing though, but that too, was a disgusting crime I wanted nothing to do with, so I was in denial. But I learned the hard way that it had really happened. If you need to talk with someone, I'll be here for you :)
IF what youre saying is true and you dont remember what happened to get you in that condition....i would say date rape drug....and I would say that you shouldve gone to the police then and there....if you didnt there is little that can be done after 3 months....as far as your emotional state....thats another story.....you need to find someone that yo can speak with and find some answers for you......i would suggest a therapist or maybe even a womens shelter. If you would like more suggestions mail me and i can give you more ideas.....
i didnt mean to insinuate you werent...but if you dont remember.....thats all
you were raped