Get some help for your depression!
The ideas in your head that are too painful for you to face are not going away until you face them. When you do, whatever they are, they shrink in size and you start to come back up. For example, if you have been "programmed" all your life to believe marriage is forever but yours is so hellish as to be destroying you, you have a "house divided" in your mind. One idea is going to have to die and it is the one that is programmed into your ego. The ego does this to us to keep us from changing. The ego wants to keep the ugly status quo, so it never has to admit it is wrong about anything. The ego is a bad "parasite"; it can actually kill its' host.
First step, whatever is bothering you? Be willing to admit you are wrong about how you see things and become willing to change.
Then meet needs as they arise. Try to find something to enjoy in them, such as the comfort of a shower, the nourishment of food, the sunshine outside and how it warms your skin.
Whatever it is that is dragging you down... leave it behind and just be. How ever long it takes.
first you need to stop talking like this
many people worse off than you - FACT
get out of bed and do some volunteer work in the local community and you will feel a lot better
if i was in your bed ,you will never get up
I felt like this for about 2 weeks i couldn't get out of bed, I felt worthless, I wasn't eating & all I did was cry. Something in me just snapp'd & everything stopp'd. I got up & forced myself outta bed & kept myself busy. Not everyone is the same & that is not a long lasting solution so I would suggest you talk to someone who can help with just more than typing a few words.
Well ok just stay put for now,little by little you need change your thinking and decide you are not going to lie there feeling helpless,you will need to get up and live and feel alive again.You will be able to do it but don't stay too long in bed.