I'm too logical/analytical/rational to have fun or fall in love or make friends. Can it ever be changed?
It's like my brain does it automatically. A man tries to flirt with me, and I'm there, focusing on how his questions are pointless or repetitive, instead of enjoying the moment. People tell me jokes, and I'm seeing the illogical part of the joke, and i destroy it with one comment. I'm in almost constant state of analysis about things around me. I can't let go, and just be light and pleasant. While i can laugh casually with people at work, i can still hear all the stuff that comes from my brain, the words i would usually say if i was not at work. I'm just too darn serious, and i have a set of personal values that takes a LOT of place. I tend to look down on people when they don't live by my standards, and it sucks. I wish i could do a personality reset! I'm trying so hard to be fun, to loosen up, but my true self just comes back. It's just like i feel " stupid" or " retarded" or not "intelligent" if i let go. I don't know how to explain it, I'm afraid i was born this way. I hope no