Is it just me? Bad luck ? Bad karma?

I've never had any success at putting up a wall of any sort.. so I do go through it over and over again. It hurts, sometimes it hurts so deeply I almost can't stand it but it heals just as fast as I allow it to heal. I wouldn't change the loves and heartaches of my past, except I would allow myself to heal much quicker when things did end rather than hold onto the pain and bitterness like a security blanket! Each love has enriched my life in one way or another.. I have learned new things and acquired new enjoyments and hobbies from each one of them.. I have the precious gift of some really beautiful memories as well and always there is a new bit of wisdom..I get to keep all of those things forever. Once I recover from the hurt that this wasn't the "one" and didn't last forever, I can clearly see that I have gained so much from each experience. Love is far too wonderful to be so conditional in that if it doesn't last it wasn't worth anything.. love is worth it even if it is short lived. You can love someone and not be able to "mesh" with them but the love is still a precious gift.. some gifts were not meant to last forever and must be enjoyed for the moment. Just because things go bad doesn't discount the memories that were great... Life is a series of good and bad.. the bad shouldn't delete the good and you should never let that happen.. if you do all you'll ever see in your life is the bad. Enjoy the moments of life.. enjoy the moments of love and the moments of just having fun in the company of someone else.. those are the moments that make life wonderous with or without forever attached to them. By building a wall your only cheating yourself and it takes a lot longer to live that down and get over the damage that will do to you than it takes to recover from a broken heart. You will heal if you allow yourself to and you will love again... And no, they are not all the same by any means..Quit looking at it as forever or not.. look at the now.. and hope for forever.. but above all else.. enjoy now as none of us know how many tomorrows there are.

you open your heart and trust someone... you open yourself up to be hurt. the gamble is yours to make.
but chances are you'll still end up posting sad questions like this after all is said and done...

It's you. You are attracted to losers.