alcohol? lowers inhibition's
what are you drinking? moonshine? drink some sweet red wine, no bad odor
I am worried that you may turn into a REAL zombie and a grumpy one as well!
Mind you don't burst out laughing when you scream!
most recreational drugs will do that to you eventually if you use them regularly enough - but also tranquillisers will do it - truly though it's better to feel pain than nothing at all
if you can find a good one and afford them - otherwise just try to reflect on your pain, there's meaning and answers there if you can but grasp them - pain is like the gift nobody wants
a gift is something given to benefit the receiver - whether it's taken with good grace or not is another matter altogether
It's called SALT
Trust me from what I read you don't want it...It makes people eat peoples face off...LOL
I am sorry you are so shy! I can be shy at times too.
If you can find a Haitian witch doctor, he can fix you up.
I don't make this stuff up.
Smothering your anxieties is never a good idea. Do you have Social Anxiety Disorder, or or anxiety disorders? I've got PTSD.