| Resolved Question Is this the right thing to do? Pls help!!?I�m getting a little it too obsessed. I know I should just move on and get over him. Plus, I�m starting to have this feeling that all that happened didn�t really mean anything. So guess, yeah I should just forget.
I like this guy whom I've seen stare at me a lot. We've locked eyes a lot but from afar only. However, whenever we pass by each other, he looks somewhere else or when I look at him, he looks down. We don't really talk. Anyway, one time I finally had my chance. I was the last in line to buy food until he came along. So I looked at him, but pretended to be surprised, then stared into his eyes for 2 seconds, then I pretended to be discerning who he was for about 3 seconds (this time I wasn't staring into his eyes). At that time, I think my expression was like I was thinking of who he was, eyes a little bit squinted (as if in "deep" thought), then I looked into his eyes again and said a long "hi". But a second after I started to say hi (I didn't even finish saying "hiiiiiiiiiiii"), his eyes looked away (with a disgusted expression I think) and he said a long "hellloooooo" (as if he was forced to do it or as if he was used to girls sayng hi to him) what's his problem? Does he hate me or something? He was nice to me before-- like he gave me his seat in the jeep. what's his problem now?
Over that. Over him. In time I will be.
Anyway, we have anew classmate who happens to be really close with this guy. I think they were classmates in high school or something. But they�re really close. And I heard him telling our facilitator what a bad boy my crush is. He was one of the worst. I didn�t exactly hear what it was he did, but I know that it wasn�t good. The new guy wanted to be in the same group as my crush is in this class field thing so badly. He even wanted to meet up with him after the group stuff. A few minutes later we had to ride a jeep to wherever we were going. And my crush kept on saying that he wanted to stay in front. O went in and sat at the back of the front area of the jeep. I was so close that I could here what my crush was talking about when he went there. Anyway, what happened was, there was an extra seat right beside me. So the facilitator asked my crush if he wanted to sit there, but then he said he�d rather stay in front. And I saw his face at that time. It was either sad or pissed. So that�s when I realized, �yeah. He really doesn�t like me.�
Then the new guy sat on the seat next to mine and tapped my crush on the shoulder and said �Pare (�guy� in another language) ONE STEP CLOSER!� I don�t really know what that implied, but I�m sure his friend was not interested in me. We�ve never met before and I couldn�t feel anything between us. This guy kept on tapping my crush on the shoulder and when we told the driver to drop us of somewhere else and not where my crush was going, he said something like bye to my crush--- and we didn�t even reach the place!
So now I learned 3 things from this.
1. He�s too much of a bad boy for me. Maybe he was just playing with me when he gave me those long gazes, and with how he reacted. Maybe he didn�t really like me after all�that�s why he�d always snob me. That could also be the reason why he didn�t want to sit next to me.
2. His friend could be gay. HAHAHAHAH
3. I got absolutely nothing from this.
It�s too bad though. This guy was someone whom I felt something special for the moment I laid eyes on him. I felt like I was looking at his soul whenever we locked eyes. Even if it still happens in the future, I�ll forget about them and not reminisce on how every moment felt. People like him are hard to forget. It�s just too bad he looks at me with those looks of longing and played with my heart by doing that. But I�ll get over this. I�m strong. Yeah. I know I am. I can do this.
So I guess this is the end of the story. Not everyone gets happy endings. Hahahahahahah. Posted 11 months ago |