Try to get well so that you can find a better option than giving up on life. I will pray for you.
Thank you for sharing. We need to pray for you too because it is a very, very difficult situation. I pray that the man will repent, that God will bring major breakthrough and sustain and comfort you always. I also hope you have some medicine for the pain.
I wish we could help you find a solution. It is a terrible situation. Is there any sort of social service that would help, or at least give you some ideas on anything else you might possibly be able to do?
Have read your story and the responses
If your in pain Dr have machines that can register pain. They have specialists.
You say you have four children but at school and far away cant at least one of you or all of you get together and try and rent or buy a home together.
I cannot understand if children grown how one cannot make the effort to help you.
You cannot chase somebody around and sneak on them and inspect their mobile phones all the time
There are people and places that will help you move if what your saying is right. And if also this sick will put you somewhere where can be looked after they will not leave you on the street.
But I am sorry your coming through to me as having more of a problem than you think.
It looks like it would be better if you thought of separation at least for a while and ask your husbands support in getting even a room of your own,.
If your this ill who is there to shop for you or do the housework or even cook. Someone has too
Who runs you to your doctors if cannot sit in a car you are not safe to drive yourself
You say you cannot get in a car it hurts to move but can chase around watching your husband.
I do not mean to imply for one min that he is not cheating but if he is he has let you down when need him most and not worth having in the first place.
How is killing yourself or saying you wish too solve the problem unless for him so your death would be doing him a favour.
So my friend it is up to you not God not prayer just you.
You owe it to yourself to either sink or swim
Get up use you phone for something useful and summon help
Stop talking and start walking ....
I know. I was there. I finally left mine. I couldn't take it. I don't regret it. I pulled the rug out from under him. He thought I'd put up with it. No more.
Love to answer when you answer this.. why no gender and why the male profile avatar ?
Cheating and the lies......m'dear I have had this happen to me too.
But you will survive, even when you think you can't.
It's so hurtful, seriously ....
Be good to you as you go through this .
change the lock.you stay
Leave him and give yourself a chance at happiness again.
You should not have to take that. Do what is best for you and he can f#@k off!
No that is never the answer. Please be kind to yourself and don't hurt yourself over someone elses bad actions. I am sending you love and prayers right now.
Get out then.
Do it. Be happy. The truth is, they'll never miss you until you're gone.