If there's someone to make an apology with, do it. Forgive yourself. Don't do it all over again..remember what you lost and think of what you will gain. No person is free and clear.We all have made mistakes we regret. It's going to be fine.
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make amends to the people you hurt.
Make one goal, or many goals, and do some little tiny thing each day to achieve it. Create MOMENTUM and movement towards causing good to happen in your life. It could be anything - learning something, running 3 miles, volunteering....etc...and do one little thing each day to move towards it - even if it's just googling to research what you are interested in.
God has a giant eraser.
We've all done bad things.<br />
I regret that I can't give you NEW advice on how to start over (I agree with theonewhoflys), I can say that you shouldn't beat yourself up over what you have done, unless you are superhuman. If you are an angel, or some other ethereal being, you should be truly ashamed.
atonement and set right to those you have wrong