I used to keep going for the sake of my daughters. They have finished college and left home now. Now I'm single again and have a woman in my life who doesn't hate me or the world. Suicide is no longer an option for me.
The love I have from the people around me inspires me.
I pull out a picture of my sister with her three kids. She passed away at a young age and she fought all the time to leave on her time even though she knew she was leaving anyway.<br />
She was always the one to pick us up when we were feeling down and she refused to little a thing called dying to stop her from living her life. How could I do any different?
Think about my Grandparents and those who have gone on, how they would be so disappointed if I just gave up like they never did.
My family, and just knowing that one day i will havethe life i used to have and knowing that my family will never leave my side!
My son. He is the inspiration in most of the things I do. My life pretty much sux, and has been that way for the last 4 years, but I get up because I don't want to let him down.
Thanks. I know what you are talking about, but things are very overwhelming for me and the only choice I have is to bury my feelings deep down. Don't get me wrong, my son brings so much happiness and joy to my life (he's only 4, so you can imagine all the fun that brings!), but there are so many other things that just get me down. I'm almost to the point where I've given up on happiness for myself.
I can't tolerate being still. No matter what, I have to get out of the house and DO something every single day. Even when I am down or deathly ill. I have to get out.
Yeah, it keeps me going.