Cry. There's nothing wrong with that. It shows you cared. It also helps you heal.
Cry for a spell in memory of your friend. Then do something your friend would like....xbox...eating ice cream from the Carton...watch movie... sorry.for your loss. It will never make sense...but.I promise it wont always hurt this bad. Promise. Xo
You can't back your best friend. The right what you maybe must to do is to go to grave to give your respect, to put some flower... If you want then you can cry.
Remember the happy moments
Would your friend want you crying....
Then your friend would have been wrong about that.
Tears are not for the weak.. they are for people that remember... and you do remember :)... Trick is not too let them control you and debilitate you at the same time
U make it sound like there is a PROBLEM with crying on thee anniversary of your friends death, which....... THERE IS NO PROBLEM AT ALL HONEY... & I'm very sorry for your loss....: ) *hugs* <3