I am sorry for your loss. I wish I can help somehow even to just lighten it up a bit.
door is always open here :)
I am sorry for your loss. I am sure that you brother would not want you to take his place. You do need to talk to someone, but it should be a professional who Knows best how to help you. Contact a local clinic and ask for referral to good people who know about dealing with grief. They will help you get through this, give them a chance. <br />
People online care, but we are not qualified to help you. We can talk to you, but we really cannot help. It is something we cannot do by just a few lines on a screen. You knew more than we can give you right now. <br />
God Bless you and be with you. Good Luck.
Had the same thing when my mother died..<br />
Can't help but wanting to do anything even when it's impossible.<br />
Just let the world go for a while and be close to the ones you care about.<br />
In my case the world just felt to big and useless at first, I felt so diselusioned like the world wasn't real.<br />
It's good if there's someone you can talk to about him.<br />
I think your life will never be the same, and just plain horrible at first.<br />
But after a long time even if your not willing to emagine it now, some aspects will even be better.<br />
You'll still miss him with all your heart, but the beauty of the memory and the exceptance of the here and now, is also a omniscent feeling of serenity.<br />
I hope you'll see these things in time, and for now I hope the pain will be bareable.<br />
I can not tell you how sorry I am, and I hope these words mean anything to you, although I can understand if they don't right now.<br />
I wish there was more I could say.
I forgot to mention that the pain you feel now, truly isn't for ever.
Just to be sure.
I feel the same thing. My older brother passed away 5 years ago, I still feel like I should've gone isntead of him. Everyday, I wish he hadn't died. My life is a mess ever since, the only person close to me is my mother, but she went crazy after the incident. When she's not drunk, she is insane (which is her normal state). Not a day goes by in which I don't think about my brother. If you'dlike to talk, I'd be glad to help if I can.
I wish that too. I lost my brother recently, I feel your pain. And I don't know what to say, but I would like to talk to you.