Damn, that really bites! These guys are giving you good advice. I know you feel like you've invested all this time into a relationship and want to salvage it, but for real...in 6 more years you'll have wasted nearly a decade, cut your losses. Don't waste your youth...your energy...your time...or your love.
Can you give us more details. Your spelling is all messed up.
So, your point being?
and your still with her you MUG....now your saying 'but i love her' yeah GROW SOME BALLS MAN!!