My neutral face makes people act as if i'm ugly, or mean like i'm inferior or something or disgusting, what can i do?
It's basically me against the world, only people that can look me in the eyes neutral faced are my niece and mother. Every other person will only accept me if i'm faking my happiness and smiling all the time. We live in a Social Societies and its hard on my emotional health to be fake. My jobs in customer service and i'm expected to either have a happy face or fake one, which takes its toll on my emotional health especially since me faking my happiness still doesn't work that well. I'm not good at being fake since i have social anxiety. I believe if i don't try to look happy people will take it the wrong way and report me to my manager and i will be fired. No one except 2 people can make eye contact with me, and it hurts me as a human being. Idk what else to do should i just let God take the wheel stop faking my happiness and take peoples reactions and face the consequences. It's kind of like the "bitchy mean face" but my eye area is deformed with wrinkles and dark circles unappealing.