So after i experienced a thing from meditation, - i wanted to open my pineal gland, i have had strange experiences, i did open the pineal gland, it felt like a BURST of love comming from my spine up to my head and it felt like an explotion of pure ****** body spasms aswell, and it felt like my life flashed through my eyes (no i wasnt on any drugs)
I just felt so enlightened for a few days after this and have explored (and been shown a lot)
Here's one of the things that i have experienced after this experience; i saw myself from others PoV like literally i saw myself doing what other would do its hard to explain but i have this compassion for people.
One day i had this enormous headache, and i basicly could look up my thoughts, the first thing that popped to my head was when i pulled a door on my foster familys toe and broke it, I WAS THERE IN PERSON i was there in front of him i could talk to him, I mean it felt so real, I could then just say "thats just the way it is" or something and my headache was gone, more and more, the deeper i looked into the things that bothered me.
Lately i have had these vision when i go to bed, it only happends once in a while, but in my vision i saw a blue man that meditated and had his finger maybe 0,5 cm away from hes other finger, and i tried to do it myself and i could suddenly feel "chi" I also saw other things in visions like dots rotating and sacred geometry forming, dots getting life when zoomed out.. a real daydream without you thinking.
So many unexplored things that im now seeing is possible only because of what happended to me 9 months ago..
when i went to bed that night everything that scared me came up, like religion and other stuff i was scared of you name it it was a real sensation when the pictures of clowns with knifes came in every 0,2 sec and i just exactly snapped it (closed eyes)
Also the room was really wavy when i stoppet meditating
So how do i get this further?