find someone else who needs help, teach a kid to read, be helpful to an elderly neighbour..etc........don't focus so much on yourself, do something for someone else and you will find that you feel better about yourself, you will find that you are actually useful, and your image is no longer so important. Then regardless of how you may look you will be beautiful. A person whose focus is on helping someone else will usually find that other ideas or callings then come to you...............
That's a great answer :)
Been there with the eating disorder I'm not a modle but I. Do like to look half way decent. Seems the weightis the main thing. If you are a modle you. Probably know how to get rid of that. If its just a little liposuction could be of help. Ther is no reason to be overweight if your otherwise healthy. Just stay away from the wrong foods and too much.
Go and sit on a hill with a guitar
I would do what I always do, Run Away! start traveling, follow that abstract voice that sings songs repetitively in the back of your mind, If you get outside of your familiar surroundings and out of your old thought-form, It will stop singing lame songs and start to give you advice from your higher-self, that should give you a new beneficial direction, get in touch with your Mother Nature! she always gives me divine inspiration, I started playing music, and life is starting to open up for me.