This will be hard on your parents too,they don't want to see you destroy yourself.
Just posting this on here .. is a cry for help. Why not just help yourself .. and put all of this in your past. <br />
You have parents who love you and want the best for you ... not everyone has that in their lives.<br />
You deserve the best in life ... so please let someone help you. You have so much to look forward to ... <br />
I believe that you need to believe in yourself.<br />
I speak from some experience with anorexia, though I do not purge, I feel the urge to.<br />
I have the inner urge to ever lose more weight. I am 5'8" and 132. Want to weigh 120, but inside I really want to weigh 110.<br />
I know that these are unrealistic goals due to the damage that they will cause me because I have a BS in PreMed.<br />
I know that this is difficult because I used to cause my brother to cry when he knew I selfharmed (cut).<br />
I still "indulge" because I haven't got help, but, I have reached internal agreements that I will not do anything too severe.<br />
I want you to succeed at defeating your enemies, but I understand the internal need to control.<br />
Perhaps you can agree to not go below the minimum "normal" Body Mass Index for your height.<br />
Don't know if these options will work for you, but something is better than nothing.<br />
Be Well and Walk In Beauty,<br />
I've been there, babe. You really need to recover for your own sake. There seems to be so much more pressure on girls these days, more so than when I was your age. The sooner you relax around food, the sooner you'll beat this. I've done untold damage to my body through an eating disorder. <br />
You're probably a perfectionist and it's so hard for you to accept yourself. You need to start by being kind to yourself. What would you say to a friend who was slowly killing herself, like this? I hope you get the help and support you need.