Out of Self-Denial, now it's too complicated, I rather be in self-denial than come face to face with it?
I dated him way back in 9th grade, but it was kept a secret because I was afraid of whatever people would think ( yeah I know, I shouldn't, but it's hard not to since it's High School ). He transferred out of our school, and came back this year ( junior year ). I see him everywhere, inside I do want to be back with him, and I was in denial that I am not Bi, but I am.. But right now, I'm dating this girl since summer, I like her, not love... Then I man up and confessed to him that I still miss him and like him.. During last weekend, he was over at my place watching horror movies, and somehow, we end up making out, but then he stopped because cus he thought I broke up with her but I didn't.. If I want to be with him(which I do) I have to make it public, not a secret like in 9th.. High School, a lot of people hates my guts, mostly because of what my brother did to them, so going out with him it's adding more fuel to their fire, what should I do?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!???!!?!?