Smell her bra
Hooker. On the kitchen table.
if she does not still love you back, then you are wasting precious moments of your own life obsessing over a love that was not meant to be; because if it were meant to be, you wouldn't be posting this question right now
even in relationships, feelings can change; married people don't always feel the same way about each other, over time; they just have become very familiar or comfortable with that person. There is some woman out there who will love you completely, but you've got to get back into the game to find who that person is
maybe you need time to fully grieve the loss you're feeling; maybe the more you stay victim to the pain, the harder it is to let go. maybe you don't have to lose her as a friend, but as a romantic partner. I'm not making light of that, at all. I can tell you are much agrieved in pain. I think that you have to make peace that it's over, and then try to gradually go places where you can meet young women your age.
love hurts because we become attached to someone; attachment is the leading cause of feeling hurt or wounded; I can't tell you that time heals all wounds, but only that time can lessen the impact of it.
?? She left you, but she still lives with you?