your health is the most important thing, if you have an issue, why not fix it, this way you can enjoy your life, once you get my age life is alot tougher, lots of things to deal with, your age is for learning stuff, learning about yourself and having fun, get squared away and have fun with the early years, you deserve to have fun and a great life.
You are loved. Believe it. Let go of your need for control. Be free
Fear of the loss of control or not being in control leads many to this condition. By controling their food intake they have the feeling of control in one part of their lives. Also the feeling that one is unloved or unlovable leads many to this condition. Freedom from that fear and those thoughts can bring relief and peace of mind.
Im no example of healthy living, but the fact is if you're not ready to change.....nothing will make you change.
So until you ready to face the challenge and change it, do what makes you happy.
Btw- its ok to tell your doctor about your problem and that you are not ready to change it.... They might be able to give you supplaments to mitigate the damage.until you are ready!
Get help for it NOW and get it out of the way so you can start living a long and healthy life. Don't procrastinate.Get help immediately.