Sweetheart, you are definitely depressed, and you need to see a therapist on a weekly basis for a while. Don't freak out that you are having those thoughts. They are symptoms of depression. The time when it is very serious is if you ever started making a plan...formulating how to do it. If that ever happens, don't delay...get yourself right down to the emergency room and get some help.
Yes..you need help...please talk to your Dr. I'm here if you need / want to talk. Please take it seriously..depression is a horrible thing...there are ways out..I promise!!! xoxoxo
IF you ARE " hearing voices " you'd be doing yourself and those who love and care about you a disservice to NOT seek professional help.
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Don't thumb your nose at " Big Pharm" Under the right care, they have saved many lives from suicide and worse.
IF you really are " hearing " voices in your head telling you things.........one day with out proper care they may tell you worse things.
Please take care, get help ! (( hugs ))
Sounds like depression to me--yes, do get help. Been there--the right meds can help enormously.