Move on. It didn't work out. Respect her wishes.
I feel for you. Having any mental complication is just unfair. It does ruin lives and destroys the person you really are. And it's totally uncontrollable. When the damage is done and your chemical balances out in your brain, then it's when you realize all you have done. It's the number 2 reason why relationships never last. <br />
As far as going to her, the best thing you can do is nothing! Leave her totally alone. No text, calls, or even leaving messages for her. The more you keep on, the more you're actually hurting yourself. Break away until she comes to you. If she comes to you, then it's worth moving forward cause she still cares. If there's no word, there's no love, and it's a sign to just move forward!<br />
Best of luck!
A clean break is always best. Find closure in other ways. Consider this: she couldn't cope with your illness. She has no certain way to know you won't relapse. You care for her; she couldn't care for you. If she could, she would have been there for you throughout. Don't take it personally. Mental or physical, illness is illness. If you're going to be with a woman, try to find one that isn't as fragile. This one can't cope. And there is no blame to be assigned. It just didn't work. Here's hoping for your continued health and future happiness.:-)
I am really sorry to hear that. Maybe she has given up on your relationship, and thinks the best way to move on is to cut you off completely. I know its harsh, because you didn't receive the closure that you wanted. I believe the best thing to do is to move on too (which will be hard), and perhaps she'll contact you when she's ready.