Trying to recover from an eating disorder, but all my weight is just piling back on.How to keep it off while recovering?
I haven't been professionally diagnosed with an ed because I've kept it a secret, but I know I must be suffering from something. For about the past year I've went from eating 2 meals a day to scared to eat at all, and last month went from 97 pounds to 83. A few days ago I just felt so weak I couldn't get out of bed, I felt like I would crumble when I stood up, and decided it was time to try to start eating again.
And now somehow in 2 days I've went from 84 pounds to 90! I'm freaking out, I'm not eating as much as I did before I sopped eating. Did some research and apparently my metabolism has probably slowed down a lot.
So how can I start eating again and still keep the weight off? The idea of getting anywhere near 100 pounds scares me to death, and if I keep gaining I'm scared I'll just stop eating again. But I don't want to go to a doctor or anything, or even tell anyone I need help.