Why are you wasting time and energy on someone that upsets you?
Become a ********/ callgirl.
Create a happy life for yourself.
Ask yourself if it was love or lust ? If it was love, there should be no reason to want to make them mad. If it was lust, then you shouldn't feel the need to hurt now.
I you loved him and he didn't love you. Then ... maybe he was just out of your league and you're better not to think about it.
You should probably stop thinking about killing him. Because bird, you might be the one who gets hurt more. I don't respect cheating. Best thing you can do, is not let it mess with your head.
Get a new man with more
Money! Then you will realize you like the new guy better anyway.
be happy when he sees u.. obey ur parents... :)