What can I do?
I had this one "friend" since I was like 3 or 4. She was a freak, I mean everytime she saw me, she would run away, because she was shy. But then, eventually in fourth grade, because I had no friends, I started to talk to her, and we eventually became friends. Then this other girl moved to our school from Georgia, and this "friend" of mine, decided she liked this new girl more, and basically ditched me. We continued to stay "friends", through middle school, and now in high school, my life has changed so much. All my "friends" have changed sooo much. This "friend", the "friend" who moved from Georgia, all of them. They suddenly started to take an interest in guys, wear makeup, fix their hair constantly, curl their hair, talk like idiots, whatever, and I just somehow, stayed out of the loop. My old "friend", and her now best friend, the one who moved from Georgia, are always obsessing over boys, and I frankly just hate them for what they do to me. They always share secrets, and never tell me anything, like about who they like and whatnot. I always thought we were closer then that, but I guess not. My bus gets to the school at 7 and school starts at 7:25, so I have really no other choice but to talk to them, but they always just ditch me for each other, then they go off on their own, looking to stalk the boys they like. I want to still talk to them, but almost cut off all connection. I really have no other friends, I mean I have acquintances, but no true friends. No one to laugh with, no one to take weird, funny random pictures with, no one to be a teenager with. What can I do? My life is so complicated, and I am just so confused.