Resolved Question

based on my parents' relationship, I've always thought marriage was a bad idea......but after talking with my friend online, I went to bed and lastly thought...I am going to end up marrying (him). I can feel it...I've never EVER thought of marriage before, or really about him before other than the random crush years ago, and a tiny overflow of it now...but I realized...I trust him with all my heart-I would tell him things I wouldn't tell my mother...and I tell her just about everything---I trust him, and I've never felt a trust like that in my life...he can figure out something is wrong when everyone else is fooled, and won't stop until I speak about it...he pushes buttons never pushed before...and we havn't had more contact than the random hug...the past few years we've had very little contact until recently--I'm saying too much he could figure this out if he read this...but...I stated litterally said outloud.."I'm going to marry [his name]." and put my hand over my mouth in surprise...WHAT DOES ANYONE THINK OF THAT? ANY SIMILAR STORIES WITH ENDINGS?...[

It's just a good feeling, but honestly don't rush the relationship and enjoy the natural ebb and flow, like the tide.