My past is History long gone and forgiven<br />
My future is Mystery is yet to uncover<br />
Today is present that is a gift I wish to cherish each moment.
If there is a feeling I try to hold in most, I guess it would be despair. I guess that in itself means you can't hold it in any more....despair is that point when you have to sort of break down for a while. Only my son has seen this.....but being autistic in his own way, he doesn't understand it to be anything other than sadness.
My sadness, but try is the key word because I'm not always successful
When my sons around I hold in my sadness and anger, when he goes to bed I have a five minute swear session but only if his mother does not visit when she says she will. Most times I dont have to hold in emotions because can express them through art and writing.
I cannot hide my feelings, I am an open book.