What is social phobia?

You being on here! lol

I have social phobia and this is what it is to me,
This happens to me even around my family.

I also have ocd, which means i tend to think a lot. I will think about all the differetn things that the other person could think about me, get completely paranoid about the way I am talking, my body language and what I'm talking about.
So I think about my body language, and try and do everything to make this person like me. Not in a 'oh plase like me' kind of a way, but more of a please don't think 'jesus christ, this girl is a complete spacer' kind of way. which is usually the impression i give off, which im not a spacer, im pretty normal person.
I think that my breathing is too loud, and try to make it as queit as possible, until i get light headed and realise Im barely breathing at all. I've always ignored it when my heart goes and I try to pretend it isn't happening, but when that happens, I think i put it back so much I start to twitch, Just my legs and my arms. Aswell I chew inside my cheek (which I have been doing so long now that that side of my jaw pops everytime i open my mouth), and i scratch the back of my neck, till it bleeds. It used to be my arm but I stoped that, well i thaught i did but really i just moved it.
And then their is my 'twich', as i put it, which is really embarresing and just makes the situation worse, that is just little blows out my nose. like a nose laugh.
when i think to much, sometimes it gets to much and i accidentaly say some of it out loud when im talking to people. It could be a word, or a sentence.
And i stutter aswell, which isn't too bad, cause everyone stutters and its easy to cover.

The thing about it is, i know what I am thinking is completely irrational, but when I am actually in the situation itself, what I am thinking is much more important at the time.

I don't use my phone, I do not talk on the phone, its too much for me at the momentl But that really ****** other people off, cause they can never get in contact with me. But people got by without phones anyway. So it shouldn't be a big deal.

Yes, i have banged on about myself for a bit there, but it isn't in the 'oh look at what I have to go through' kind of way. I really don't look for sympothy. Because I actually have a really easy life. And i am very lucky and gratefull, just thaught i would try and explain what it feels like seeing as you asked.

Social Phobia, or Social Anxiety Disorder, is an anxiety disorder characterized by overwhelming anxiety and excessive self-consciousness in everyday social situations.

When one has a problem or anxiety whenever they are around other people.

It's a phobia of socializing due to previous bad experiences. It's similar to post-traumatic stress disorder if it only applied to other people if in a social setting. It is treated with anti-anxieties.

Sometimes, I get overly anxious over things I have no control over. Examples are, catching colds, what other people say or what they do not say to me. The most current thing is that I feel anxious regarding deadlines for my work...I still have to depend on others to a point (this makes me crazy because I can't just do it all myself! It is tough to let go of that control! :0