family,friends along with all the good memories and achieving my dreams make me the happiest!
Nothing about life can make my life worth living; in fact the relationship I'm in is such a dud to me, that I'm ready to just drop it completely.
I don't believe I will ever have a new and exciting relationship again but this one is just causing me more grief and sadness than joy. It's not love on my end at all; to this other person, I'm everything, and I don't need or want that.
thanks; I do appreciate your words. I don't expect anyone else to be my everything or satisfy my every need or want; but I think I should feel something passionate for the person I'm with, and not feel like I'm settling because this is likely the only person in my entire life that's left that will give me the time of day.
I really don't think at this point, I want to make friends with anyone new; I'm sure it's a loss on my part, but I'm at a stage I'm still in deep hurt, and I cannot take those steps right now, and maybe never.
I think I just have to come to terms with everything on my own. My ability to trust anyone is pretty shot at this point. I guess I spend more time wondering if this is all there is to life, or is there something I'm missing. I just don't desire to live in a world that is predominantly cold and cruel and where other people pass you day and night mindlessly and without any thought to what you may need. In a way, life just seems totally mindless now to me.
I believe life has purpose and meaning, and that individually, we all have purpose and meaning, too; but sometimes, I think life shouldn't be THIS hard, THIS frustrating, THIS narrow-minded. I don't know why some people can't just mind their own business and not intrude into the lives of others they don't even know; I think society has a morbid interest in all that they don't fully understand, and that gives you a glimpse into their dark side (which we all have, but some will deny it completely). I wonder, does the pain ever end, does the heartache ever cease, is it really all for something, or in the end, will none of it really matter at all.