Then you should wear dresses and girl clothes. But note that women's clothing sizes are very different from men's clothing sizes and the cut is very different.
Maybe you're just overreacting to a new idea. Are you really just a guy who doesn't want to be tied down with all the stupid things that the expectations of others make you do? Are you looking for the materialistic ex<x>pression that is mostly abused by females? <br />
Whatever gender you truly want to be, just focus on finding friends who are girls so you have easy access. Just think about them as humans even though they get to wear any color of the rainbow freely, use hair accessories, et cetera. Maybe you should stare at them to get them to talk to you first. Anyway, after you get closer with them you could probably do well by expressing your inner pain with just trying to fulfill such a simple wish. Most children are really just as different as you are so you will likely find acceptance.
go ahead whats stoping you enjoy
No, killing yourself is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Yes, you should explore your desires and see if it feels like "you". Message me if you need advice on exploring this.
Because I undergo the same stigma being judged for carrying out what I believe is right for me. So I understand your plight.