Then you should wear dresses and girl clothes. But note that women's clothing sizes are very different from men's clothing sizes and the cut is very different.
go ahead whats stoping you enjoy
No, killing yourself is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Yes, you should explore your desires and see if it feels like "you". Message me if you need advice on exploring this.
Because I undergo the same stigma being judged for carrying out what I believe is right for me. So I understand your plight.