What's The Only Thing You'll Ever Need. http://www.jamesaltucher.com/2013/08/dont-go-to-jail/
"What can I do that would make you happy?" the doctor said.
"The only thing is if, right now, you write me a check for a million dollars," I said.
"And you think you'll be happy then?"
"I KNOW I will be happy then," I said.
"I don't think so," he said. "You'll find something new to be miserable about."
And he was right. I always needed more.
There was always a new trial by fire. And when you are burned, you can lose everything. Which I did and did and did and did.
I wanted to be a millionaire by 30 (didn’t happen)
I wanted to be a grandmaster of chess, maybe even World Champion (didn’t happen)
I wanted to be published novelist by 25 (didn’t happen after 4 solid attempts and thousands of hours of trying)
I wanted to be THE GUY to take Lori Byer’s virginity in 9th grade. There was zero chance that was happening. That was sort of laughable actually.
I wanted to be a billionaire by 40. Didn’t happen.