i kinda understand you...i mean,i always mess things up at home and i literally can't do anything right,and when i do something,i mess up again.my mother calls me a "walking tornado" i am a very pessimistic and awkward person.i hardly make any friends.in high school,most of them look at me like i'm some kinda freak because i'm not trying to blend in and i'm anxious.but,as long as you have at least one good friend,you have a reason to be happy.and worked out for me,kinda,i try to point out my good side and think about that.try it,i'm sure that everyone has a good side :)
Keep trying. Maybe you haven't met the right people yet. All things take patience and practice and socializing takes a lot of both.<br />
Don't make the mistake of staying sheltered and keeping the world out - there's so much to do and see! Even if you are a gloomy person, find people that will accept it if you like being gloomy. If not, you can always learn to change into who you want to be.
That may be the case, but why let that keep you?