You are dealing with grief. Grief doesn't end but does ease. You have to accept it, work with it....trying not to grieve only makes it worse. There are those who may wonder why you would be grieving but I don't. You have suffered a loss, the reasons are irrelevant. ((Hugs))
If you live in the United States, you might look up "Project Rachel". It is a counselling service precisely for women in your situation. the goal is to find healing.
It fades. For everyone the timing is different.
It never totally goes away, just like when someone close to you dies.
Well, everyones different and they heal differently. A friend of mine had one at 16 and she's 20 and has finally came to peace with it.
I had an abortion over 10 years ago and I still think about the baby and I named her as well and ive said my goodbyes but I still think about what she would have been like.
Everyone is different.
You will never forget your child. But it will fade over time.