Relationship. <br />
Let me say, ATTEMPTED relationship.<br />
That's one thing about narcissists...I don't think they are ever really in a relationship with anyone else. They just see that other person as an extension or a resource for themselves.<br />
I STILL have to pick up a book on narcissism now and then to remind myself how freaky and unhealthy it was. How I shouldn't love him or pine for him or just MISS him so much. <br />
Gotta keep your feet planted in the REAL world, even when your heart and head aren't cooperating. And never go back.
Questions you will probably never have a good answer for or understand. They are a breed apart and can only be understood by other narcissists I suppose. You'll just frustrate yourself trying to find a solution to this...I know...I did everything I could and I am still feeling a bit unsettled. Try not to punish yourself any more than you have to...if I understand your situation, you have already been punished enough.
If you aren't yet MARRIED to the narcissist in question -- get out NOW.
It's worse when the narcissist is a parent or an in-law and your partner cannot or will not grow a pair.
I dated a girl once who was extremely smart, had most of her ducks in a row...But she was just so completely full of herself. She believed she was a Disney princess. She believed everything should've been handed to her on a silver platter, with no thought or inkling of hard work or dedication, without wanting to have to earn it. I put up with her for 2 years because she was great at giving head. And then after a while, even that lost its novelty. She was a huge ***** >_>